Who is Jesus | Sittingwithsinners

The God I Feared. The Jesus I Found.

I spent much of my childhood terrified of the God I was taught. A God portrayed as angry. Jealous. Vengeful. Coming for sinners who didn’t repent.

And while there is truth in God’s wrath — it was only part of the truth.

The fullness of the Gospel; the mercy, the grace, the rescue — was largely minimized.

Our desperate need for a Savior wasn’t denied… but it wasn’t fully understood either.

I grew up knowing about God —but not knowing Him.

It wasn’t until my young adult years, when I hit absolute rock bottom, that I truly met Jesus. The Jesus I walked into relationship with in 2012 was nothing like the fearful image I had carried for years. And I didn’t find Him inside a church building.

He found me near the gates of hell. He didn’t condemn me. He didn’t throw stones.
He didn’t remind me of my failures or list the poor decisions that led me there.

He never once said, “I told you so.” And there was no condemnation in His presence — only open arms. But a gentle voice spoke: “Here I am, daughter. I’ve been waiting for you.” With outstretched arms, He pulled me up.

Understanding the One I Met

Before I share the attributes of the Lord I’ve experienced since stepping into relationship with Him in 2012, it’s important to understand one of my core beliefs.

I believe in the Trinity. Three in One.
God the Father. God the Son. God the Holy Spirit.

Three distinct persons in one. Confusing? It can feel that way.

How can three be one? A wise mentor once explained it to me like this:

I am Jennifer. I am a mom. I am a daughter. I am a friend.

I am one person — but I operate in different roles and functions. Each role carries its own responsibilities. Yet regardless of which role I am operating in, my spirit remains the same. That illustration helped me understand something deeper about God:

The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit are distinct in function —

yet unified in essence. The same Spirit. The same heart. The same love.

And it is that love — expressed through all three — that changed my life.